Wow ang lalim ah, thanks... may similarity pala tayo ng way ha...
the first time I experience nyan, I normally socialize , go out with friends, gimik, tambay etc.. but I forgot to ask God to guide me and I know that's not right...
I regret it alot, I wanted God to be a part of my life ulit pero nahihiya na'ko lumapit skanya noon kc tgal nko di nkapgsimba. Yes I was praying then but not attending the mass or even sing for him. I was a choir in HS for 4years, attending 3 masses every week, and pagdating ng college masyado ata akong nagenjoy nakalimutan ko na magsimba. Kaya nung nabroken hearted ako, di pa rin ako nagsimba kc nahihiya nko pumasok sa simbahan. Feeling ko kasi baka isipin ni Lord na kaya lang ako andun kc hihingi ako ng tulong ni hindi ko man lang sya napapasalamatan sa mga binibigay niya sa akin. I prayed to him na gusto kong maglingkod ulit sa kanya, tulungan nya ako mkabalik sa kanya....
You know what he did? 1st he use my close friend to make me go attending masses again. Yung friend ko nagkaroon ng matinding problem and needed someone to be at her side. I never leave her nun, kaya kahit hindi na'ko nagsisimba napapapasok niya ako sa simbahan kasi kelangan niya ng kasama.
2nd thing I ask him is to let me feel pain, you know what happen next? He makes me fall in love again and let me experience pain, yung tipong iiyak ka talaga. That was the first time na umiyak ako because of a guy, feeling ko di ko kakayanin pero I hold on to my faith, sabi ko kaya ko 'to, mas napadalas ang pagsisimba at pagdadasal ko nung time na iyon... I even join the choir to serve him kc sya lng ang kinkapitan ko...
Ngayon ang narealize ko, he gave me what I asked him... He let me experience such pain para matulungan niya akong bumalik at makapaglingkod sknya... I thank the person who hurt me, I know I deserve it. I believe God use my friend and the one who hurt me, as an instrument to help me go back into serving him again. When I came here in Milan, my first target is to join a choir and continue serving him, ayoko na siyang iset aside kasi sobrang nakakahiya na sa kanya pag ginawa kong kalimutan siya ulit...
People really need to learn the hard way... People need to feel pain to be a better person... Everything happens for a reason... Kahit hindi mo alam ang reason kelangan mong tanggapin kasi sa darating ang araw malalaman mo rin kung bakit nangyari ang mga bagay na iyon... Ang galing ni PAPA GOD di ba? Thanks sa comments mo, share ko lang din yung naexperience ko hehehehe TC